Saturday, January 10, 2015

Lost boy

I am a lost boy
From neverland
Usually hanging out with 
Peter Pan 

And when we're bored
We play in the woods
Usually on the run from
Captain Hook

Run run lost boy
they say to me
Run away from
Reality.....

Neverland is home
To lost boys like me
And lost boys like me
Are free

Thursday, January 8, 2015

i remember....

i remember when, where and how we met, i thought i was just gonna be getting pizza, but go more than i could have ever dreamed of.

i remember jupiter.... ;)

i remember when i would tell her how beautiful she looked and she wouldn't believe me, so i would spend up to hours to try to convince her.

i remember how my heart sank along with my jaw when i saw her walk up the stairs in her prom dress.

i remember the first time i held her hand in the very back seat of that pearl white chevy traverse.

i remember the first time i kissed her after the bum fire ;) (inside joke), on her front porch, with trembling hands and jello legs, terrified about how i felt like the world was gonna end if i screwed it up.

i remember after it, feeling like i could have flown in the air all the way home.

I remember the way she would scratch my back when we watched movies.

i remember cuddling and fake be offended by something she said and turn my back to her and how she would beg me in the cutest most innocent little voice i've ever heard to turn back around.

i remember walking out her front door at 11:50pm, knowing that my curfew was 12:00 and it took 15 minutes to get home but i wanted to squeeze every second of every night that i got to be with her.

i remember reading the four page letter she wrote me when we ended over and over and over and over and over again until i had it just about memorized.

i remember more about those 6 months than anyone could ever comprehend.

The self-conscious 6th grader

This poem goes out to my little brother Carson

They used to call me fat
And tell me I could lose some weight
I used to say no shit
I'd come kick your ass but I have to finish my plate

It bugged me being bigger
It for sure hurt inside
But I always knew someday I'll thin up
And I'll have the hottest bride

Sure I was pretty typical
Brown, fat and dumb
But luckily I had no fear
For whatever may have come

So for you I tell you this
Shake the fucking dust
Never give up hope
And find friends you can trust

Because friends can mean a lot
They will always have your back
Even if they are halfway around the world
They will keep you on the right track

Carson I love you dearly
Keep your head up bro
You're only in sixth grade
The perfect time to let yourself go

You'll be tall dark and handsome
Soon I promise, you just wait
And you will grow up to be successful
And do something truly great

And when those people try to drag you down
When you're going in an upward direction
Politely give them this
And pay them no attention





Sunday, January 4, 2015

#realshit

If you really knew me, you would know i laugh a lot! you would know that i have always been a class clown and a below average student.

You would know that my friends mean the world to me, and though i may never see some of them very much after high school or any of them ever for that matter, if i were to get a call ten years from now from any of them, saying that they needed help of any kind like getting bailed outta jail, need money, or to even just help move, I would travel half way around the world or spend my last dime to do so.

you would know that all my best friends are on missons and i feel stupid because i am not gonna go on one, so i feel like im not good enough to be friends with them anymore. you would know that i am pissed as hell cuz i just lost my last (best) friend, and by the time she gets back from where she is going, ill be long gone and wont be coming back anytime soon.

You would know that sour skittles are the shit.

you would know that i have a lot of regrets in my life!

You would know that i am not a native to utah (then again if you knew me at all, my personality kind of makes that easy to find out), and my methods of problem solving are a little unorthodox.

You would know that somedays i am the most predictable person ever and on other days you wont have a clue what i am about to do.

If you really knew me, you would know that i am PETRIFIED to be out on my own, You would know that i am so scared to think that i will be fending for myself soon and that i am doubtful if i will be able to survive in the real world. I am scared for college and scared to leave my friends for good.

And if you really knew me, you would know that i am also so UNBELIEVABLY EXCITED to be on my own with my own responsibilities.

you would know that i want to leave all of this life behind and start over completely. You would know that i am obsessed with california, so much that i am going to school out there. you would know that i am beach bum.

if you really knew me......... to be honest......... than you already know who i am haha. But just because it is in fact the assignment, my name is Caden Humphrey.